hopeless

what is there left to do when a person becomes CONVINCED that God doesn't care about them?

if she dies, i will blame myself.

.....

i feel like i'm all alone in this.

i feel like i am responsible for keeping her alive.

okay, i admit ... it is draining.

my hair is so brittle it is breaking off and falling out in chunks.

i have taken to wearing a hat whenever I leave the house.

i hate wearing a hat.